So the worst of it is over. I've finished my exam for my music literature class, I've found out the date of my oral report (which is next tuesday). I finished reading the damn book (which was pretty good) and turned in my four poem responses and poem essay, and I'm also starting to get some free time without worrying about schoolwork. However there's one thing that just keeps slipping my mind.

    I keep forgetting about everything to do with my transfer to UC Davis. This has to change, I still need to find housing, which is the number one most important thing I need to finish soon.

    But other than that, I guess life is getting sweet again. I'm back to just a few assignments per day which is much more manageable than my previous long-ass-to-do-list. I wan't to finish this post with a poem I did for my english class. It was in response to "Sous-Entendu" by Anne Stevenson. Here's a link to her poem:
 Sous-Entendu


My Eyes

        I sincerely hope you don't find out
        My eyes have taken an express route
        Down your body and through your blouse
        As if you're dressing in your house.

        When our eyes meet I turn away
        I think with strength, all else astray
        Your head wanders throughout the room
        I leave the lab to dig my tomb.



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...So...

I just realized i'm gay.



I'll let that sink in before I post again.

    So this morning I went to tennis. My friend came. Some time later I notice near the gate her ex come in and sit. The whole time he was watching us play, which is kinda nerve-wracking when you like his girlfriend (i'm assuming they're back together, they didn't want to break up in the first place). Near the end of class I wanted to say hi to him, just to be friendly. Maybe break the ice a little bit, but I didn't. Instead I noticed my friend seemed like she didn't want the class to end, because I'd have to get close to the guy to leave, and not talking to her while they left isn't nice. So I just did all of us a favor and said bye early so they could leave earlier.
    Man =_=

    So I haven't been trying to remember dreams lately. This is mainly because i'm just focusing on getting some sleep before the next horrible day arrives. I tried last night again, it worked of course, but since I wasn't trying as much as I should have, I hardly remembered anything.

    You wanna try remembering a dream? It's easy, really. The trick, is to adjust your alarm to wake you up 3 hours after you fall asleep. Afterwards, set it to go off in another 2 hours, then another 2 hours. That's right. You can remember up to 3 dreams per night. This is due to the times when you have REM sleep (Rapid Eye Movement). You have REM sleep 3 hours after you fall asleep, then every two hours afterwards until you wake up. Why do people who sleep well not remember anything? Because they sleep for 8 hours, meaning they ended REM sleep an hour earlier.

    Set your alarm to go off 3 hours after you fall asleep. In my case, I fall asleep at 11 and I set it to go off at 2am. Now, just because you wake up doesn't mean you'll completely remember it. It will leave your mind VERY quickly. So, what you have to do is quickly hit the snooze button. Keep your eyes closed and recall every single event that happened in your dream. This will embed it into your memory so that it won't go away. Afterwards you can just set the alarm to go off 2 hours later (in my case, 4am). Repeat the process, and then set it in another 2 hours (6am for me). When you're completely awake, try to go through your dreams. I doubt you'll remember all 3 if its your first time. Some people decide to write down their dreams right when they wake up.

    Well, I've done this a lot before, this isn't just me regurgitating something I found online so you know it works. You don't have to worry about nightmares. If it's that bad, it'll wake you up by itself with or without an alarm, so whether or not you try this you'll remember it. Try it, you might remember something pleasant ;D

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hey ho! Happy Valentines!

    I was gonna make this post earlier, but I was in class and the lecture just started. I also wanted to make a nice valentines pic but I didn't get to, and now that it's too late, I probably won't. So how was your Valentines? Did you get to spend it with someone special? I know I did! I've been neglecting my Xbox 360 lately, so I bought Lost Odyssey. It got really mediocre scores, but I have to say I love it so far. I love the "Thousand Stories" feature.

    Anyway, other than that, not much happened. I ended up not asking anybody to go eat out with me. Then I found myself in one of those mistaken conversations a few times. You know, when someone automatically assumes something about you and you can't tell them the truth one way or another. My parents and my sister each asked me why I didn't treat my friend for lunch or something =_= Getting tired of these "accusations". It'd be so much easier if they just knew; "I'm not trying" "she likes someone else" and I guess "none of your f*ckin business".

    But yeah >_> I'm really looking forward to this 3-day weekend. Should give me some breathing room, finally! Will post again soon, ciao~